Waiting

I've been struggling a bunch lately with waiting. I got back from Russia and it hit me like a ton of bricks. I don't like to wait for God's timing. I just want, what I want, when I want it. It's the society we live in I suppose, that tells us we can have immediate satisifaction in whatever fancies us at the time. I'm not being completely worldly you know...I just reallly want to go back to Russia. But, it's not God's timing. That's a hard thing for me to accept.

I'm trying extremely hard to be patient. I did pretty good for about a year. But, I went back to Russia for 2 weeks, and I got it back in my blood. Oh, I long to be there. I long to share the love of Jesus with them. But, again, not God's timing. When will it be? I don't know.

I met with my director today, and we talked about going back, what the timing could look like. It's good to know that she knows my desires, and wants that for me in His time. But there are a lot of factors involved. When will it be His time?

I know God's really working on me. Refining my character. Teaching me about my gifts. Guiding me in His path. If I must wait, I'm glad that I can find rest in Him. That's really the only place that I can find perfect peace in His will. I'm glad to be right there, even if it means waiting.

"To You, O Lord, I lift up my soul. O my God, in You I trust. Do not let me be ashamed. Do not let my enemies exult over me. Indeed, none of those who wait for You will be ashamed."
~Ps 25:1-3a~